Louder Now

Jared is me. Me is loud. Loud is now. 🙂 And that is all you get..

Just kidding. I started a blog in 2007 when I was 21 years old living in Kansas City, Missouri. I think I was born to write or I was born writing. Creativity is a gift and runs in the family. Writing to me was a way of escape, yet it was a reflection of my reality at the same time. I wanted to be on stage and act and sing and then I wanted to make movies and be in the movies and at the end of the day it all came down to stories. I want to tell stories. I am a story. I want to be in a story. Everything is a beginning and a middle and the final closing of all is what we call the end.

We are not even close to the world ending. Depending on who you are talking to. The world is full of noises and phrases and statements. Voices and sounds come involuntarily yet so much of what we believe and see is from a thought that is intentional and developed and spoken through over and over again.

The Ruckus Journal is not this blog but is where the phrase Louder Now came from and now Louder Now is about my dealings with darkness, depression, anxiety, losing my mind, going to the hospital, attempting unthinkable behaviors due to sadness, surviving suicide, going to more than one hospital, traveling in between states, finding purpose, staying the course, wanting to give up, feeling alone, thinking I am alone, and all the while living my life.